If I had to choose 1 word to describe this past year, it would be change. I have been told, in the past, that I don’t handle change well. As I have gotten older, the realization came that life is nothing but a series of changes. Ha! So, one can surmise that I don’t handle life well…didn’t handle life well. You see, 2018 was not only about change, but deciding how to handle it. The decision could have been made to stay the same. Keep existing, sit super still, not move, and stay where I was…or to move and do, and live life, instead of just existing through it. That is what I chose to do this past year. I chose not only to endure change, but to generate it.
January started with beginning to blog, choosing to build a network marketing business, and create a Facebook group and Instagram. This might not sound like much to you, but for a pencil and paper kind of gal, not tech savvy, it was a lot for me! I had no idea what I was doing or how to go about doing it! I just decided to jump in and do it scared. If you are familiar with the color personalities, I am not a red, so this was not natural for me, but it was necessary. As a mother of 3 children and 2 with special needs, many years have been spent taking care of others and helping to make ends meet. Somewhere along the way I lost myself. I was buried deep in a 9 to 5 job that I dreaded going to every morning. My house was cluttered, my body was sluggish, and my heart was heavy. I don’t regret taking care of my family. I just didn’t remember to take care of myself, too.
Blogging has given me a way to connect with others. When we choose to put ourselves out there, we quickly find that we aren’t the only ones that feel a certain way about a certain thing or that we like the same kinds of foods or we are in the same phase of life, stage in our marriage, or we have the same interests. We also find that people are much kinder and supportive than social media sometimes makes us think. The love and support that I have received from all of you has been so very heart warming!
Network marketing has been a huge learning curve. It is not something I ever thought that I would like to do, but I have found a product and a company that I absolutely believe in. This year has been one of growth, personally and as a team. I have an organization of people who are like minded and are finding our products to be beneficial in their lives and that makes me happy. As a result of my new business venture of learning to help others support their health and wellness, I began a Facebook group for product education and camradery. It’s more fun doing it together.
By April of 2018, I decided to make a huge change that not only affected me, but everyone in my family. I chose to resign from my 9 to 5 job and come home and focus on my family and Sweet Home Healthy Family, my Young Living business, full-time. This has allowed me to go on a Disney field trip with our youngest, clean out closets, update my bathroom (still in process), and cook like crazy, to name just a few things. I have had the time to invest in others. For the first time, I was able to participate in our county’s annual Christmas Gift Shop, which helps provide Christmas gifts, prayer, and the presentation of the gospel. Our family was able to take several trips for weddings, wedding receptions, Thanksgiving, a trip to the beach, and a much-needed get-away for two. No worries of being allowed the time off or having time to prepare Lauren’s meals, if needed. I am home to take Michael to school and pick him up and make sure he takes the supplements needed for him to stay healthy and able to focus and finish projects. My house is cleaner than it has been in years. Christmas/December was not stressful for the first time in years. I am not exhausted.
Finally, I have made the time to work on my marriage and on me. I have prayed like crazy this past year and God has been faithful. A prayer that I have been praying for 25 years was answered. Steve now prays with me daily. That is not something that he felt very comfortable doing in years past, but he has realized how important it is to me and for us. We have both worked very hard these last six months on us. I am supportive of his need for speed ie…bmx racing, and he is supportive of my need to be the hands on mom and keeper of our home. I dole out the vitamins, supplements, and Ningxia Red to keep our immune systems humming, and he helps me carry the heavy things, works on the vehicles, (not that women can’t do that. I have changed the brake shoes on a min-van before 😉 and he shows our children how a wife should be treated-with love. We have, again, found what works for us and a new rhythm.
I am happy. I have accomplished many of the goals I had at the beginning of this year and worked through the tough things that came our way via unhappy work situations, marriage issues, the passing of dear family members and friends, a new adventure into network marketing and health and wellness. I do not know what the future holds, but I know who holds my future and am excited for the coming year. I am praying that each of you has a very happy and healthy new year, as well.
Looking forward to 2019!