“Whether you think you can or you think you can’t, you’re right either way.” Henry Ford
Lately, I have been studying conscious language and the power of what we say to ourselves. Actually, I didn’t set out to study this. The subject just keeps finding its way into every article I read, devotional I do, video I watch, radio program I listen to. You think God is trying to tell me something?
Well, I do.
You see, I struggle with depression. Deep, dark, ugly depression…and when I say struggle, I mean fighting it tooth and nail most days, feeling like it has won. What I have learned about this state of mind is that it doesn’t just stay on the inside. It oozes out and seeps into every tiny crevice of my life. Why do I mind? Why should I care? It’s just how I feel. Right? Wrong. Thinking negatively turns into speaking negatively, which then shapes those within my sphere of influence – my children, my husband, my friends, my coworkers. It shapes how I feel, how I look, how I perceive everything and how others perceive me. Soon, what happens? My words create my world, whether I intended that or not.
So, what do I do with this world that I’ve created? What a mess! How do I turn the ship around? I have found that a negative thought pattern that is ingrained in the brain is a terrible place to be, however, there is hope. There are physical things we can do and there are spiritual things that we can do to flip the switch, so to speak. I don’t think it is easy for anyone who struggles with this, but I do believe it is possible. For with God, ALL THINGS are possible. Matthew 19:26. Living an intentional life is just that. Intentional. If I wake up grumpy and filled with anger and frustration, I will reap anger and frustration if that is all that I sow. If I continue to think about, mull over and fuss about that which upsets me, then, my attitude will be negative and I am going to have a bad day. If I step out of the shower and say His mercies are new EVERY morning, this is the day that the Lord has made, I WILL rejoice and be glad in it, whatever is true, whatever is noble, whatever is right, whatever is pure, whatever is lovely, whatever can be admired, if there is anything excellent or praiseworthy, think on such things – then I have chosen to change my thinking and I can pray that the Lord will honor His word and bless me with a good day. For He is faithful to watch over His word to perform it.
Please don’t misunderstand me. I KNOW that it is not easy and there are days where, nope, my day still stunk. I deal with chronic pain from degenerative discs and exhaustion from adrenal fatigue and I have two special needs children. LIFE is not easy. So, what else can I do? Rest is important. Vitamins and supplements to support my health are important. Exercise is important. (Exercise gives you endorphins. Endorphins make you happy. Happy people just don’t shoot their husbands. They just don’t.) Ha ha. It is true that exercise does make me feel better and I absolutely believe in the power of proper nutrition and vitamin supplementation.
When I fail miserably and give in to the anger and irritability, and sadness, it feels terrible. Isaiah 55:6-7 says: Seek the Lord while he may be found; call on him while he is near. Let the wicked forsake their ways and the unrighteous their thoughts. Let them turn unto the Lord, and he will have mercy on them, and to our God, for he will freely pardon. I ask forgiveness for my stinkin’ thinkin’ and I try again. Life is God’s gift to me. What I do with it is my gift to him. So, tomorrow is a new day.